The last business day of 2011

I thought I'd do a 'year in review' type blog entry.

This last year has been an interesting one to say the least.

I woke up on January 1st last year and immediately went into a depression. This thought stayed forefront in my mind: "This is the year I turn 50!" And I let it really bother me. I thought it really showed at times in my attitude and confidence. But I also grew in my confidence too. I learn a lot about myself. By the time Jimmas (my birthday) rolled around in late August I had come to accept myself more and more. And finally in October I got this "fuck it" attitude about growing older. It's better to just accept myself and go on with life.

Work was work. It's not something I love, but I don't hate it either. I like most of my coworkers and try as best as I can to ignore the ones I don't.

This year has had it's ups and downs with friends too. Some friendships grew in unimaginable ways and others withered away. I think I really learned the value of people and who I called a friend. A real friend isn't someone that is on a social networking site with 10 friends in common. A friend is someone who loves you as you are and knows when to look the other way too. I can honestly say that I love my friends and they tell me the same often too.

It was nice seeing some of my family in Utah this last summer... but I doubt I'll ever go back. It feels like a world away from where I am in my life now.

This last year makes me think of this old song:
Who knows what tomorrow brings
In a world where few hearts survive
All I know is the way I feel
When it's real
I keep it alive
The road is long
There are mountains in the way
But we climb a step every day...

Good bye 2011.